As evening came, Jesus said to his disciples, “Let’s cross to the other side of the lake.” He was already in the boat, so they started out, leaving the crowds behind (although other boats followed). Soon a fierce storm arose. High waves began to break into the boat until it was nearly full of water. Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Frantically they woke him up, shouting, “Teacher, don’t you even care that we are going to drown?” When he woke up, he rebuked the wind and said to the water, “Quiet down!” Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm. And he asked them, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still not have faith in me?” Mark 4:37-40
I’ll be the first to admit, I don’t know that much about boats. I’m decent with a kayak, but beyond that, I tend to get a bit green even on relatively smooth water. I don’t know knots, sails, booms or hatches. So I’m pretty confident I wouldn’t have been much help in a boat filling with water during a fierce storm.
There were several fishermen among Jesus’ disciples – they knew boats. They knew how to handle themselves on the rough sea of Galilee. And yet even they were frantic. This storm, this situation, was beyond their capacity. That’s something I do know about.
I also get it when the disciples cry out, “Don’t you even care?” I imagine my prayers sometimes sound quite a lot like those frightened shouts from the disciples – I’m scared and you’re not answering – do you even hear? Don’t you even care? When we’re threatened and overwhelmed, it’s natural to focus on the storm. But I think God invites us to look past the storm to see the peaceful, undisturbed countenance of the Savior. The storm didn’t bother Him in the least.
When the disciples stopped trying to handle the situation on their own and asked Jesus for help, He responded. He calmed the wind, the waves, the disciples. And then He asked them, Why are you so afraid? Where’s your faith? Don’t you believe in me?
I’ve thought about Jesus’ response quite a bit. What did the disciples get wrong? They were scared and they went to Jesus with their fear, looked to Him for rescue. That seems like a right response. The problem wasn’t their fear. The problem was they doubted that Jesus even cared what happened to them. They lived with him. They saw his miracles, his compassionate heart. They laughed with him and ate with him. But when the journey got rough, when the storm came up and their boat was tossed around, they forgot all that. They saw the waves, and their faith was sunk.
It’s easy for us to put our trust in the seaworthiness of the vessel or the skill of the captain, in the things we can see that make us feel safe. But it was never the boat that was holding the disciples up. Ultimately it’s something unseen that guarantees you stay above the water, that gets you safely to shore. We know this because sometimes boats fail. Sometimes ships sink. And sometimes God takes away the boat, the thing or place that feels safe, to reveal where we’ve placed our trust.
What was it that the disciples really needed to believe in? What do we really need to believe in? Not in the power of God. The disciples believed Jesus had the power to do something about their desperate situation or they wouldn’t have bothered waking Him up. What we need to believe in is the love of God for us. That He cares about us. The disciples, you, me – none of us need to be afraid of the storms and squalls of life because God loves us. That is life transforming. That makes all the difference. Let the love of God be the pillow under your head, the peace that gives you rest, even while all the world storms around you.